Narada: I have wonderful experiences through the practice of Yoga, but when they are over, they are only a memory. I’m sure they have contributed to my overall spiritual development, but is there more to the fulfillment of human potential?
Swami Nishchalananda: What we are really interested in is not changing experiences, but That which is Unchanging.
Posted on 5th Jul 2019
This satsang was given at Mandala Yoga Ashram on the 8th of June 2018, on ‘Guru Purnima’, a day traditional in India for acknowledging the role of the ‘Guru’ or Teacher.
“I don’t think an external teacher really teaches you anything…… except to show you, directly or indirectly, where you are stuck in a particular way of thinking……. what we are, fundamentally, is always there.”
Swami Nishchalananda Saraswati
edit and sound by Narada
Posted on 28th Jun 2019
‘…. when we see that our belief systems and our behaviour is nothing but conditioning, that then gives us the starting point for looking deeper through meditation’
Swami Nishchalananda Saraswati
This satsang, and question and answer sessions, were part of the ‘Meditation – going deeper’ course run by Swami Nishchalananda and others in October 2018 at Mandala Yoga Ashram.
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There is an interesting philosophical conundrum:
Everything exists in space, but in what does space exist?
This is not only a question in yoga and mysticism, but also a conundrum of science. After all, modern science hypothesizes that the universe was formed out of the so called ‘big bang.’ Before the big bang, apparently nothing existed, not even space; so from where and from what did space come? Reflecting on this type of question constitutes the practice of Gyana Yoga. The fact that space comes into existence – that is, it is created – suggests that it is not a fundamental principle. It comes out of ‘something’. This suggests that there is a Reality more fundamental out of which space arises, together with time and everything else that constitutes the universe in which we live.
In one of the wonderful collection of books by Carlos Castaneda, Don Juan, the Yaqui Indian shaman says: ‘The worst that could happen to us is that we have to die and since that is already our unalterable fate, we are free; those who have lost everything no longer have anything to fear’.
This is a realistic attitude to life and death. Life is short and transient. As we live our life, let us investigate our fears, ignorance and what is behind life and death. Freedom is not in our ego but in what we are as Conscious Presence.
What is this ‘I’ with which we so identify and which we spend our entire life-time feeding, pampering, protecting and re-producing? What is this ‘I’ that we fear for after death? Will the ‘I’ be extinguished or will something survive?
For thousands of years, yogis, sages and seers, as well as the yogic texts, have clearly stated that there is just one ‘I’ – behind every action, every thought, every feeling in our lives. This is the Conscious Presence in each moment. This ‘I’ expresses itself at different levels of ego-identification, which we will describe in the following paragraphs. Though they define our moment to moment experience, these ego states are ultimately unreal. We can call these ego-levels of I, the ‘me’.
All of us know the personal ‘I’ of daily life. In yoga, this level is called the ahamkara – literally, ‘I do’ – our sense of ‘I’ comes from our identification with the body/mind and the role or roles we play in life. We have a sense of I-ness and individuality – me-ness – which we fulfil and express by doing and achieving. If we don’t achieve certain things according to our desires or ambitions, our sense of self-image suffers and we feel like a failure. If we fulfil our ambitions and desires, we feel we are a success; temporarily we have a positive self-image and the ego-I or ‘me’ feels good.
This level of ‘me’ also includes thinking. Many people, especially intellectuals, get a sense of worth and a feeling of fulfilment by thinking and conceptualising. Here the ‘doing’ is in the mind. This level is indicated by the dictum of the French philosopher, René Descartes, when he stated ‘I think, therefore I am.’ The individual identifies himself, or herself, as a thinker. Our sense of self-existence comes out of the fact that we think. But despite the proposition of Descartes, this level of identification, which is the unquestioned stance of modern western belief, is not the fundamental ‘I’ at the core of our Being.
On a slightly deeper level comes the sense of ‘I’ which in yoga is called ahambhava – literally ‘I am.’ This level of ‘I am’ is not meant in a fundamental or mystical sense, but rather the sense of ‘I am so and so: John Smith or Brigitte Dupont.’ This feeling of ‘I’ depends more on a self-identification with who we are as a personality, rather than what we do. This ego state can also be called ‘me’.
The next level of self-identification is called asmita which refers to the sense of ‘I’ on a more existential level. It can be summarised by reversing Descartes’ statement ‘I think, therefore I am’ to ‘I Am, therefore I think’ or better, ‘I am, therefore I am enabled to think’. According to yoga and Hindu philosophy in general, Being is considered to be fundamental and thinking, secondary. This indicates that out of our Being comes the possibility to think as well as to feel, intuit and perceive.
We can get a taste of asmita, the Being aspect of the ‘I’, during meditation, although there is still a sense of identification, albeit perhaps tenuous, with the ego-personality.
On a more fundamental level comes the sense of ‘I’ as Consciousness (atma), which can be realised when the mental processes stop, or dissolve, albeit temporarily. At this point there is a re-identification or re-cognition of what we are as Conscious Presence. Ultimately, this is the only ‘I’. All the other levels of ‘I’, no matter how real they may seem in our daily experience, are illusory and conditioned projections of the mind. At the level of Consciousness, we are able to say ‘I Am’ or to use the Biblical statement, ‘I Am That I Am.’ This is not an egotistical statement, but a realisation that transcends our sense of individuality. At this level of identity we know that we are not really separate from other beings and things. This realisation arises in a super-meditative state known in yoga as samadhi (literally, ‘absorption into Reality’); it engenders compassion for all other humans and all creatures.
Yoga or any spiritual path will take us on a journey through the different levels of ‘me’ to arrive at realisation of our fundamental identity as ‘I’. Then we discover (or rediscover) the truth of our existence.
Note: The Sanskrit language is traditionally used to describe yogic terminology. In the above text, these are shown in italics.
Posted on 9th May 2017
When I was eight years of age I had a dream, a very lucid and vivid dream, that repeated itself over a period of some weeks.
I dreamed that in my search for Truth I traveled endlessly into space passing uncountable stars and galaxies. Eventually, I reached the edge of the universe. There I found a huge brick wall!! I started to pull away some of the bricks to see what was behind. What did I find? …. an infinitely thick brick wall! Therefore I hadn’t reached the edge of the universe or the limit of Infinity as I had ardently hoped. Even in my dream this was a shocking revelation, an impression that lingered after I woke up. Though it was more on the level of my subconscious, I realized that one could never reach the edge of Infinity, or know the extent of Infinity, by external endeavor.
It was some 20 years later, when I was initiated into the secrets of Yoga, that I came to know that, whilst one couldn’t reach the edge of Infinity externally, it is possible to know Infinity in the depths of one’s own Being.
Swami Nishchalananda Saraswati
Mandala Yoga Ashram, 1999.
Posted on 5th May 2017
All religions, philosophies, systems and sciences are different fingers pointing at the moon (symbolizing Reality). They do not and cannot encompass Reality. This includes the systems of yoga, tantra and advaita. Realization of the Reality behind our embodied existence can only take place when the sense of ego-identification temporarily dissolves through meditation, reflection, insight, love and being completely focused and absorbed in the present moment.